Vacation travel – a nightmare I had

I had a terrible nightmare the other morning. It was in the arly morning hours, I had changed the time on the alarm clock to allow another 30 minutes of sleep. In that time I had, in a dream of course flown to California for a business/pleasure trip, and ran into some trouble with my boyfriend. I was dreaming that while I was busy at a business conference, he was making friends with another guest at the hotel and had invited her up to our room to continue the conversation they had started in the lobby. i walked into the room where he was having a conversation with this young blonde extremely attractive woman and his sister was there. So they were all engaged in a friendly chat. My boyfriend and the “new” girl were completely out of their heads intoxicated and flirting with each other as if I wasn’t even there. It was a terrible feeling I thought I was going to vomit. Instead, I stopped the conversation by saying that I was uncomfortable with the situation and the more my boyfriend acted like it was nothing and there was something wrong with me the more upset I got. I finally showed the girl out by saying I knew there was something else going on and I wasn’t going to stand for it any longer. I told her to get out and told my boyfriend that he could go too if he wanted. He refused and as I closed the door I yelled that she could wait for him to come to her room but he’d never find her because he’s as dumb as a door knob! I then turned to him and told him what I thought about his obviously cruel and disrespectful actions and I told him I was going out by myself. I wondered how’d he’d like that. I then started ignoring him and listening more to his brother. His brother was saying that he was a jerk for treating me like that but he just kept defending his position. I finally woke up from the dream to hear a baby kitten cry outside my window. My boyfriend was already dressed for work and he went outside to see if he could find it. he only got a quick look it was a little guy who was all black and had green eyes. If it wants a home I’ll take care of the little baby. I love kitties.

So that’s it for the dream pretty crazy huh?

 

Dreaming of ex-friends

May 13, 2008 I had a bad dream
I woke up this morning after having an incredibly lucid dream about an ex-friend. I had seen her while I was out running errands or getting some sort of service done, a pedicure or an oil change I really don’t remember what but I couldn’t remove myself from the situation because of the service being performed and instead I was forced to make eye contact. She looked at me as if I had done something horribly wrong to her and I quickly snipped back at her and said:
{Don’t look at me like I’m some evil person! You were the one that just stopped talking to to me after my divorce, you chose your “side” which I never forced you to do. It came naturally for you and that’s the end of it. You’re a fair weather friend and I don’t need that in my life. Just do me a favor and stop emailing my mother. Who do you think you are? You won’t talk to me but yet you’ll email my mother? Come on!}
The dream then gets a little violent because I slapped her in the face a couple times just to get my point across. She was crying and everything. I heard myself saying things that I couldn’t believe were coming out of my mouth even if it was a dream. I told her that I slapped her so that she would understand how hurt and angry I was. Like that’s a justification for hitting someone. I seriously couldn’t believe I was rationalizing my actions in the dream in that way.

Analysis:
I guess my subconscious mind really needed to let off some steam. I don’t really understand the whole getting a service done and not being able to avoid her but if I was analyzing it I’d say that the confrontation stems from my fear of running into these people that I am no longer friends with and how I would handle the situations.